SUCCESS

So i was sitting on my porch this morning and i had a thought...and this is basically how it went in my head
mm coffee...cigarette...balcony...balcony of success [silent gasp]. Kandi brainstorm ensues...

Think about that for a minute. if you are on the balcony of success, you have a choice to make...you can either jump or you can go inside... what choice would you make? Essentially i have that choice to make. although i cant call what i am doing a success. but it is on the way. Yet i just want to jump. I cant stand the way i am treated, like i am second class. But if i can just stick it out for another year ill have enough experience to do this at another facility. I wont be piegon holed, ill be hiring material and i can work with kids...oh what to do what to do...

been a while

Too long since i vented...
so much going on
as i sit here tears are welling up in my eyes and i couldnt possibly tell you why. i don't even know where to start...BLAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hubby is almost home THANK GOD.
havent had sex since last year (literally)
best friend broke his back... has to get feeling back before he can walk again
got a new job
People are assholes
have no AC
Have no time
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH